Maybe I will dance

Several years ago my friend and I attended a women’s retreat/conference that encouraged us to look deep within ourselves and identify the latent dreams and desires residing in the hidden recesses of our hearts. Once identified, the Lord would then be free to grant that which we so fervently desired. Name it, sister, and go for it; your wish is His delight. Okay, so maybe I exaggerate a little but only a little because, really, that seemed to be the essence of their message. One conference speaker had dreamt of dancing so dance, she did. There, on the stage, as part of the conference. You go, girl.

Somewhat sheepishly I confessed to my friend that what I really wanted was Beth Moore’s job. Of course, I said it with a slight chuckle, like it was something of a joke, really, not to be compared with the dancing dream (and, indeed, what can?). To my friend’s credit, she did not laugh nor even snicker, at least not to my face.

Looking back on it, I understand my embarrassment, and still share it, but I’m also apt to cut myself some slack. What Bible teacher who believes in the message she proclaims doesn’t long for an open mike and a captivated audience? Bible teachers want to teach. Actually, they must. Or such is the case with this one. Whether it’s five or fifty, I am so grateful to those who come along for the ride. And yes, it is far closer to five than fifty.

Of course, if I am honest with myself, I’ll admit that the perceived glamour of such a gig as Beth Moore’s also appealed to me then—this of course before my freely confessed state of cynicism concerning the current culture of personality that seems to mark most women’s Bible studies. In other words, let’s just say the appeal, it’s waned somewhat.

However, next week, beginning Monday, the best part of Beth Moore’s job will be mine–it will be my joy and privilege to lead a women’s conference, teaching women of the call of Christ to brokenness, surrender and holiness. But it won’t exactly be as I’d dreamed so many years ago. In fact, there will be nothing glamorous about it. No cute and trendy fashions, instead I will be wearing a thrift store skirt. No mike, no stage, no praise team; instead I will no doubt be stumbling over my words even as I beg the Holy Spirit to make sense of them first to the translator and then to the women, those precious women eager to hear God’s Word taught.

I will be teaching a women’s conference in Nicaragua.

I am so excited.

I am so overwhelmed.

We, eight of us from my church as part of a larger team, are going on a mission trip to Nicaragua: to an orphanage, to a women’s conference, to a men’s conference, to a construction project, to door-to-door evangelism, to discipleship with young women, to any and every opportunity we have to share the good news that Jesus saves.

I am so excited.

I am so overwhelmed.

I am not scared for my safety. I am scared of my own inadequacy. I am scared of the homesickness that already weighs on my heart. I am scared of mishandling the message, the priceless, beautiful message that beckons sinners to be reconciled to God.

By the time most of you read this, I will have already left. Will you pray for us? Pray for our travel and for our health. Pray for our families here at home. Pray for the women’s conference next week (Mon – Wed) as I seek to teach on Brokenness, Surrender and Holiness. Pray against homesickness. Pray that we will love the Nicaraguan people with the love of Christ. Pray that we will proclaim the gospel boldly as we ought. Pray that the Lord in His mercy might shine the light of the knowledge of God in the face of Christ to those who are lost and desperate for His saving grace.

I do not know what to expect. I am eager. I am anxious. I am encouraged as I put my faith in the promise that the One who calls is faithful. He will do it. To God alone be the glory!

This is my dream and who knows? Maybe I will dance.

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Author: Lisa Spence

Wife, mother, Bible teacher, bibliophile, occasional blogger

21 thoughts on “Maybe I will dance”

  1. I’ll be praying, Lisa. What a tremendous time. Trust in the One who gives every word perfectly. The remedy for fear is to possess an object more beautiful than your fear & focus on it. You all ready possess the most beautiful–the Savior! Your heart’s focus on Him will sustain you against every world’s opposition. Go forward boldly, sister! Can’t wait to hear of the fruit.

  2. I’ll pray, Lisa! May God grant you the ability to communicate the truths of His Gospel to those whose hearts He has prepared to receive eternal life. And from those may He raise up evangelists and teachers to carry on the work He has started!

  3. I’ll be praying for you too, Lisa. Isn’t it good to know that it is in our weakness—not our trendiness—that He is the one whose loveliness shines forth. May your gaze be steadily on Him, may you bear much fruit for Him!

  4. “But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

    I’m praying: The Holy Spirit will give you words you can’t think of on your own, courage you can’t muster up on your own and empathy and compassion you don’t possess on your own. That he will be working in the lives, hearts and minds of those who attend, making them open to his message, whether it comes from your mouth, your actions, others’ words and actions or quite possibly, because he is all powerful, from nothing other than the Holy Spirit moving in the heart of someone you will never know about.

  5. I am praying also!

    Your post just overwhelmed my spirit and I am suddenly FILLED with joy and excitement for you! (I mean, I was excited for you before because I know this has been a dream for you, but this is just – really, really excited.)

    I will pray for you daily and I can’t wait to hear what the Lord works – in you and in those you are ministering to and with!

  6. Lisa, you can count on my prayers too! I know that He will give you every word you need to communicate His message to the Nicaraguan women. His Spirit dwells in you and you can count on His enabling completely. And you can rest in His care for you and your family as well.

    Can’t wait to hear all about this precious time and privilege He is giving you!

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