Now what?

The short answer: I don’t know.

Yesterday was not good, at least from our perspective. We are heartbroken and profoundly disappointed.

Last night a group of us met here at our home, at one point all of the adults crammed together on our back porch, talking, sharing, comforting, confessing.

It could’ve easily become an angry kind of meeting, and while there were at times honest and heartfelt expressions of strong emotion, it felt more like a gathering of family after the death of a loved one. Some grief, some hope, all intertwined with an air of loss and resignation.

Not to mention a mean game or two of “Corn Hole” and the emergence of a clear “Corn Hole” master.

It was community and a coming alongside of sisters and brothers. It did my heart much, much good to know neither our struggle nor our sorrow are solitary.

We prayed together, asking, begging, pleading for direction and perseverance. For us, as well as for our pastor. We prayed for God’s glory to be magnified. We asked for forgiveness as well as to be forgiving. We believed the Lord’s promises to show Himself faithful.

So, what now? Only the Lord knows. We wait. We seek. We trust.


Author: Lisa Spence

Wife, mother, Bible teacher, bibliophile, occasional blogger

13 thoughts on “Now what?”

  1. Praise God for that, Lisa. It sounds like a sweet, sweet time of fellowship and the drawing together of those who earnestly seek the Lord. Persevere, sister, persevere.

  2. I, too, enjoyed our time together last night – despite the circumstances which brought us together. As I mentioned earlier, my anger has turned to overwhelming sadness and again, I don’t know what to pray for. I am hurt, disapointed and confused. I plead for a clear answer as I struggle to understand what has happened. I am reluctant to even consider the future, yet know that we must plan ahead for the sake of our families. Despite all of this, I am so thankful for wonderful friends, fellow believers, who allow me to be vunerable with my emotions and are always willing to forgive. If nothing else, I am blessed to have you as a friend. I cannot think of another group of people I’d rather have by my side at a time such as this. Though I cannot fathom how, I pray that God recieves all the glory. He is mighty and He is able. L.G.

  3. It is a great place to be-waiting on the Lord, but a very hard place to be as well. Under HIs wings in the midst of the storm. Oh, sister. The meeting sure sounded as if it glorified God. Praying His will be made known clearly! Hugs to you!

  4. That precious place of knowing that God is at work not only in humble hearts but against the enemy’s scheme is rest indeed. Even when tears well in the eyes, His hand holds His people firmly, boldly, without fatigue. I wait expectantly with you for how He will continue to reveal His glory.

  5. I prayed for you all several times throughout the morning as we were at our own church here many miles away. I will continue to lift you all up. I am thanking the Lord you had that time of fellowship with those who drew together afterward. I’ll be praying the Lord will grant clear direction and wisdom.

  6. One of the best things you wrote that is key in any conflict: “We asked for forgiveness as well as to be forgiving.”Humility. Recognizing one’s own shortcomings. Desiring reconciliation rather than “win at all costs.” These are pleasing to God.Praying for you!

  7. Oh Lisa,I have walked where you are walking and it hurts so bad ..He will be faithfull..Listen to him and and he will feed your soul with just what you need. Prayers for all of you…

  8. I am praying diligently for you, your family and the church. Somehow the LORD is working good for those who love him in this (Rom. 8:28).Keep trusting him and resting in his grace to you–there is no greater gift than to be found righteous in Christ!

  9. Oh Lisa, we’ve been through a VERY similar struggle, and I’m SO, SO, SO sorry! It’s SO hard!!! I’m so thankful the Lord brought humble hearts to gather and pray and share….like family! Praying for you through this!

  10. I’m so sorry your church family is going through such a sorrowful time right now Lisa. May the Lord grant you a clear and definite course as you faithfully seek His will.

  11. Now the comforting, confessing, and back porch gathering I understand. But what in the world is “Corn Hole”?peace~elaine

  12. I’ll admit, I Googled “corn hole” to see if you were using some sort of metaphor. (Wikipedia shows it as one word, BTW)Checked your blog often since Sunday morning and still praying for your church family.

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