Home again, home again, jiggety jog. We are finally home and I can now pack up my traveling shoes for an extended amount of time. Relief, yes, as there is no place like home. Stress, of course, as I’ve already told you about the overwhelming nature of my calendar for the next couple of weeks. Today I am attempting to practice the art of denial. Okay, not really, but it sure would be nice to forget about it all, at least for a day!
The reason for the title is because this award should make you reflect on five bloggers who have been an encouragement, a source of love, impacted you in some way, and have been a Godly example to you. Five Bloggers who when you reflect on them you get a sense of pride and joy… of knowing them and being blessed by them.
How cool is that? Rebekah herself has been all of those things to me and I am honored and humbled by her kind words of encouragement. Thank you, my friend; I am grateful.
While out of town, with my blogging hands effectually tied behind my back, I’ve been thinking of blogging and essentially the why and the reason for. A few of the bloggers that I’ve enjoyed reading in the past have either closed shop or taken an extended blog break in order to focus on other areas of their lives, their homes and families mostly. I totally respect their decision and their commitment to do whatever the Lord asks. In fact, it has prompted some reflection on my part about why I blog and what I hope to achieve.
Do I blog for me, or for others? Both, I think. Blogging is an outlet, a forum whereby I can chronicle my journey of faith, but it is also an amazing conversation between bloggers. At the risk of sounding a little weird, I’ve learned much about my faith and what I believe (and what I don’t) by reading blogs.
So, yes, I blog for me, but I also blog for others. To know that someone–sometimes just some one–is blessed or challenged or encouraged by something I wrote is both humbling and exciting. To use this crazy medium to show my God glorious is my desire and my goal.
That being said, I do not blog in order to gain a large readership. It’s tempting to make sitemeter my god, obsessing over the number of hits and so forth. Instead, I blog what I blog and I pray that God will use it as He will.
I think one of my biggest fears in blogging is others thinking me something other than what I am. Last night I dreamed a vivid albeit nonsensical dream wherein I met three fellow bloggers in real life. I won’t describe the dream in detail because as I said, it made absolutely no sense. However, when I unexpectedly encountered these blog friends (in my dream) I was so nervous because I was afraid they would be somehow disappointed in the “real me.”
That is not to say that what I write here is false. It’s not. I am as sincere and honest as I know to be. This is my life and my journey, my struggles and my lessons learned. But my scribblings here reflect only a part of me, and not the whole. My words may accurately reflect the desire of my heart, but not always the act of my will.
So I blog. And as I stated on my very first post,
Certainly there are bloggers more skilled with the keyboard than I. Many who are wittier and smarter and easily more theologically profound. I am as ordinary as we come. Yet it is my desire that out of this very ordinary life, my God may show Himself extraordinary. I am the humble clay jar blogger “that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of [me]”. (2 Cor. 4:7)…may God take this ordinary offering and ignite it with the fire of His glory so that all may see Christ only, always, living in me…